Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Emerging into Spring

As a few of you may have noticed, I have been slowly emerging from my winter hibernation, reading and occasionally commenting in the few journals I can keep up with. I think I got overwhelmed last winter, reading and commenting on dozens of journals-all of which I enjoyed a lot. Unfortunately, that led to too many hours a day at the computer, physical pain and burn out. I will try to take care of myself better in the future, though I am sorry I can no longer keep up with all the journals I enjoyed before.

 I am actually doing a bit better than the last time I wrote here, and I truly appreciate all the comments left by J-land friends. It was wonderful to feel connected and supported by so many even though I was not writing in my journal. It made me feel blessed through some bleak times, and I am grateful.  

I spent the winter doing physical therapy, going to the gym, seeing not one but two therapists (one for me, one for couples therapy), fixing up my bedroom-new bed, new paint, new quilt made by Peggy, new bookcase-all thanks to Peg and Pam and Kevin. I have finally learned I cannot do a massive clean up by myself, and have asked for help. It is a new and hard won learning.

I am still waiting for the surgery on to take the pin out of my arm and fix my carpal tunnel, which will help with my pain (I hope). Workers Comp is fighting me every step of the way, and I continue to fight back, with the help of my lawyer. I have also decided that in order to to live, I have to have a gastric bypass, so have started the paperwork and preliminary appointments. As most know, it is a long and trying experience just getting to the doctor for the first time, and surgery will be months away.  

Sad news: my mother is not doing well. She had emergency surgery last night; they took out 5 feet of blocked intestine, a bit of it cancerous. They are also worried about her heart. My brother lives in Denver, and my sister luckily happens to be visiting there this week. I'll fly out on Sunday, for another two week visit.  They were supposed to come east to their summer home in PA next month, but that's up in the air now. I am so thankful I took the time to visit her in the fall. And that I am not working so I can go now.( Actually I'd rather be able to work and take the time from work!)  

Spring is slow in New England, but the daffys will soon be blooming and neighbors are emerging from hibernation, as well. The baby who disappeared into the house next door in the fall has emerged a toddler!  We have a new baby-Jack-down the street, who will be out soon in his baby carriage with his proud Dad and Mom. Other neighborhood kids have lost teeth and grown taller and are out and about again. Soon the Friday Night Cocktail Hour On the Wall (around the corner from us, in front of someone's house) will begin, and we will catch up on all the neighborhood doings. 

 I'll try to write a bit more often now.  

 Many blessings, Margo              


jeanno43 said...

So nice to see an entry from you. Glad you have been looking after yourself.  You can get overwhelmed sometimes by alerts.  Sorry to hear about your Mother and wishing her well. I shall pray for her xxxxx

sdrogerson said...

Your news is not so good but it is great to have you back in journal land


blondepennierae said...

How wonderul to hear your voice again.  I have really missed you.  I'm glad that you are doing what is best for you.  You sound much beter then you did your last entry.  Surgery scares the hell out of me, but it sounds as if it will improve your life.  My prayers are with you.  Pennie  

donah42 said...

What a nice treat to find an entry from you:)

indigosunmoon said...

Good hearing from you sweetie.
So sorry things are so rough for you
right now.

ksquester said...

I am sooooooo happy to "see" you again. You even sound better. You have doing lots of things this winter. Spring has now sprung!  :-D   Anne

csandhollow said...

So glad to hear from you again! Worker's comp is a pain in the rear! Congrats on deciding on the surgery. My best friend had it and is thankful everyday!

ryanagi said...

Glad to hear you are doing better...but sorry to hear about your Mom. My mom had colon cancer and lost a stretch of her intestines too. I hope yours recovers soon.

dbaumgartner said...

Good to see you back.  You seem to be taking everything one step at a time and end result will be what you are looking for.

I will keep you and your Mom in my thohghts.  Be safe while you travel.

hestiahomeschool said...

I am glad that you ar re-emerging. You have always been a favorite of mine.

judithheartsong said...

I am thinking of you and send my love. judi