Shhhhh.... Don't tell anyone.... Margo might overhear and get her hopes up too high, but there might just be the tiniest flicker of a light 'way down towards the end of this tunnel I have been alternately slogging and crawling through since August 18th.
I went to see my surgeon on Friday and was whining and moaning about sleep deprivation-I have been up to pee every 1 and a half hours all night long since Aug.18th- and he looked up and said, "have you tried any food?" Well, no, he told me not to. "Would you like to?"
Dumb question. Of course. So, we made an agreement. When I can get 15 grams of protein and 32 oz of water down, I can go on half rations of the TPM(IV food), to go in during 6 hours, so I can get some uninterrupted sleep. When I get to #( grams of protein and 48 oz of water, I'm off all together.
Tomorrow I start half rations of TPN. Yesterday I managed to get 18 grams and 30 oz of water in, and my stomach hurt, and I kept right on sipping protein drink(ugh). So far today I have 13 grams of protein, and 27 oz of liquid, and tomorrow I am going to have to do even better. I plan to be off TPN by the time I leave for the Poconos Oct 6th. If all is ok with my Upper GI scheduled Wednesday, of course.
This is hard labor. Before surgery, I couldn't stop eating, and easily drank 64 oz of water a day. Now I have to force 2 Tbs of yogurt down and remind myself to sip, sip, sip all day long. It's all very odd.
There, I am so relieved to have something good to write about I am almost giddy!